When you let go, the real gift will come.
Many of you probably don’t give merit to Tarot, but I do. I tried to teach myself to read Tarot years ago, but it took a diligence I didn’t possess at the time. I still have my Rider-Waite deck in one of my memento boxes. I believe having the ability to read is a true gift. You’re not just drawing randomly from a stack of cards, you’re actually tuning into the person and his/her energy. And that energy is what determines the cards drawn. I’ve had a number of readings over the course of my life that have proven eerily accurate.
Yeah, I’m one of those nutty people who believe in occult type things, but don’t worry, I’m not going to sacrifice your dog or anything.
Humor aside, my readers know by now I’m going through a rough patch regarding my job. So much so, I’ve put in a 30-day notice with the intention of leaving on the 31st, should the boss lady not push me out sooner. My good friend Janel has a sister who is gifted and experienced in Tarot. She apparently decided to do a reading for me last night, unbeknownst to me and share the results with Janel. Janel tells me about this reading this morning, and how I just had to call her sister to get the details. Jenn and I spoke around 4:30 today…
Not that I was surprised, but the cards she pulled were very appropriate to my current situation. Here is the breakdown with some of my notes.
Card 1 - the card of Discontentment.
Has the obvious meaning, but is also a card that symbolizes evolving and creation. My muses are present asking me to embrace my creative discontent, not to blame myself, but to see the frustration I’m going through as a longing to grow and change.
Card 2 - the card of Unconditional Love
The card of the Divine Mother telling me I should let go of the doubts and the fear, that love is available at all times if I allow and accept it. I am completely loved and accepted for who I am. My self-criticisms are not real and not part of my divine soul.
Card 3 - the card of Death
Because of the name, this card generally freaks out a lot of people, but with my little bit of history, I knew it doesn’t mean I’m going to die or something tragic like that.
This card spoke the most to me because it signifies the time has come for me to give up and let go of the situation at hand, be it a job, a love relationship, a habit, or a path, because it has run its course and holding onto it is hurting my spirit. The hard part of this situation is already over but I have to let it go and move on for the real gift to come.
(later in the conversation, I asked Jenn if the card could apply to more than one situation because more than one immediately came to mind, and she said that it most definitely could apply to multiple scenarios in my life.
Oh, but there’s more!
After talking a bit about the above spread, Jenn asked me if I had a specific question in mind. This is the standard approach Tarot readers take when giving a reading. So, while the above details were very appropriate, the spread she did in relation to my specific question was even moreso.
I told her about the drama at my office, how I had put in a resignation without having another job lined up and that this was definitely the first concern on my mind.
She went silent, I heard the cards shuffling in the background and her doing a bit of deliberate breathing as she pulled the first, the second and the third card from the deck.
The first word out of her mouth after the third card was a very resonant, “Wow.” Clearly, that one word response caught my attention, especially since it sounded so full of amazement to me.
Card 1 - the card of Loss
Obviously a card of loss, grief, regret, disappointment - she said this applied to stuff from my past, though, and i am ready to unburden myself…but to do this, I must walk through the pain, experience it, then let it go. Realizing it is not a forever thing. I must also realize my healing guides want me to seek the help I need.
Card 2 - the card of Solitude
The card of rebirth, observation, listening. Right now my soul wants to be still, to be quiet as it has been overstimulated and I want to pull away in order to hear the voice of my higher self.
Card 3 - the card of Exhaustion
The card of overload. I’ve been a workaholic lately and trying to do everything in my power to just do…everything. It’s time to back up, let go and allow the universe to reward that effort. Overdoing is simply fear in disguise and I need to turn over the responsibility to my divine helpers, and stop worrying so much about what will happen next. I need to trust that the universe will take care of me.
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All in all the conversation lasted just over 20 minutes. I can easily say those 20 minutes were some of the deepest moments in my life thus far. I was speechless, yet my mind was rattling a mile a minute processing it all. I’m still very much in that place nearly three hours later.
By Janel, October 6, 2007 @ 7:39 am
Wow… those are very appropriate, yes? I hope you take it to heart and really give yourself some alone time to work on letting go and moving forward. I think a key part (theme?) of it is dropping the self-criticism (related to the job front, and otherwise) and realizing that you are whole, complete, and perfect. The Universe is supporting you and you are loved. :woohoo:
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By Britney, October 7, 2007 @ 4:59 pm
My dad did a tarot reading for me before. It was cool.
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